RANSVESTIA

must have popped out of my head, and the next day she came home with a wig and high heels in my size. I thought the wig was gorgeous, and it is now my favorite feminine item.

She soon had me completely dressed as a woman, including makeup. She thought I looked beautiful. I doubt, however, that I would ever get up enough courage to go in public this way since there are so many female mannerisms to conquer, plus the voice problem. There have been four occasions, however, when the kids were gone all day that I was able to lounge around the house all dressed up or in a peignoir outfit. My wife encouraged this because she saw how happy it made me.

There is a very tragic part to my story. Not six months after all this openness began, we discovered my wife was seriously ill with an incurable form of cancer. The doctors gave her two years but compli- cations set in and she was dead four months later. Her death was a crushing blow. Now I'm trying to figure out how I want to spend the rest of my life. There are certain advantages to being single if one is a TV, but I need someone to share my life with. The problem is finding an understanding women that would have the same open mind as my wife possessed. I am certain of one thing-she would have to know of my needs before marriage. No more secrets!

That's a brief history of my TV life. I don't know why I am so inclined, but I enjoy every minute of it and consider TVism as ab- solutely essential to my life.

I have begun to read extensively the pertinent literature. The most pleasant surprise was finding out that there may be a million or more men in this country with similar habits, although I have yet to meet another TV. Someday, if I find the courage, I'd like to attend one of the FP get-togethers. If I had one wish, it would be that society's barriers be lowered so that we could freely appear in public dressed as women with absolutely no stigma attached to it. This will probably never happen.

You wanted suggestions on how to fill TVia. Being a new subscriber, I would like to see some of your best articles from previous issues reprinted. True stories are the best, but fiction is also enjoyable. Whatever happens, I hope you don't find it necessary to go out of business, especially since I just found you!

Sincerely,

Lynn PA-20-N